​​THE ROUSTABOUT HEART

Adventures in Recovery

Reviews for the Roustabout Heart...


"The path to recovery is different for everyone and although there are clues to a past filled with struggle and grief, this book contains positive affirmations and breathes hope and beauty into a place that is often associated with darkness. How sweet it is to realize the hard work it takes to maintain sobriety while rediscovering the simply wonderful and fulfilling experiences life has to offer. Keep this book handy and open to any page, any time of day to put your mind in a quiet place."


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"An awesome read about the journey from insanity to freedom. The thoughts and experiences shared are so real no addict can deny. The

author paints a vivid picture of what it truly feels like emotionally and spiritually to escape turmoil, death, and darkness to find gratitude and life in recovery."

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"When I received this book, I tore open the package and read the first thirty pages in the kitchen. I read the balance in my office, and I felt like I'd been to a super great speakers meeting."


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"I have never been an alcoholic or drug addict, yet I am in recovery as well. Mary Killian's powerful words bring me comfort. They help open me up and make me aware of what God is doing to help me in my own mixed-up life. They make me grateful, more open, more aware of who I am. Mary does this deftly, directly, and with humor and understanding, not only of her own experience, but of the experience most humans, from time to time, are confronted with--a feeling of emotional and spiritual emptiness. I ignored the idea of a higher power for many years, believing I was on my own. Mary's message has universal appeal. It's for anyone who doesn't know where to turn for help. It's about prayer, trust, and how to talk to God in one's own voice. In these times, hope is in such short supply. This book delivers hope, and recovery, as grand adventures. I highly recommend it."


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"Open any page of the Roustabout Heart and feel the gratitude Mary has for her life. Yes, even the messed up years because they taught her useful lessons. This book reads like the Daily Word for Recovery. A look into the past, a reminder to live in the present and the hope of a tomorrow - one day at a time."


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"Mary has written a book that those of us who are in recovery can relate to in virtually ever word written. And she has written it in a way that anyone who is interested in knowing themselves and seeking answers to the big questions in their lives will enjoy. She writes from a sincere, honest and grateful place, and her natural curiosity and love of others is apparent throughout. It is wonderful collection of the thoughts and revelations she has come across during her recovery, and it would provide much comfort and guidance for those who may just be beginning their new lives. A great gift for a loved one."


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"I really enjoyed this book. I highly recommend it too anybody in recovery. The insights and thoughts of the author I could totally relate too and loved the humor throughout the book. While there is reflection of the cost of addiction to herself and others; the joy, hope, and gratitude that comes with recovery is expressed throughout the book. I loved it."


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"I am new in recovery and finding my feet and my Higher Power. And just like that...another gift...this great book. I loved reading it and am reading it again. It is very inspiring to me, and I completely relate. Thank you, Mary for writing it, and thank you to my Higher Power for putting it in my path. I highly recommend this book. It is helping me, and I don't feel so alone. I love books about recovery, and I love this book. Good job."


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"Not being an addict in recovery or even very religious, I think I got as much out of this book as someone who is. The way Mary Killian's mind works, along with her insight, made me read...and re-read her thoughts on paper. She is very open, honest, and adds unique humor to her life struggles. She shed a whole new perspective for me. Mary makes it easy to see. Read this book. You will thank her."


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"This book is great. It's like sitting down with Mary and having a cup of coffee and a conversation about recovery. Each page is a wonderful, pointed glimpse into what it's like to live in recovery on a daily basis. The Roustabout Heart is a very, very good book. I intend to give this book to my friends for Christmas this year."


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"This engaging book of aspirations can be read cover-to-cover or opened anywhere, and it will offer strength and hope.  That is this book's best gift. Mary Killian is a wonderful writer and many will love this book, though it is clear to me that she has more powerful work to share in her future. But one triumph at a time. Definitely recommended, especially for those who have struggled with addictions themselves and can use the support and strength offered here."


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"Vignettes of mental and social musings surrounding a personal journey of recovery are what to expect when opening the pages of "The Roustabout Heart". The pages turn easily; I chose to read the book at night just before sleeping. As a Sister in Sobriety with author Mary Killian, the short passages, of course, strike chords of solidarity and understanding. For this reader, the message of connection with a God of your own understanding stands out. Recovery is an inside job, whether or not you are recovering from alcoholism (me), drugs, overeating... the list goes on. Also... the underlying thread of humor reminds the recovering individual "don't take yourself so seriously"! Messages of hope and reminders to ask for help weave a sturdy canvas on which to paint your own picture of recovery. Easy reading for someone new in recovery, and a great reminder for all of us, that "one day at a time" (or one minute) WE can do just about anything!"


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"I love this book. The short thoughts that are written throughout the book are thoughts that I can easily relate to and, since I am also in recovery, they are quite meaningful to me. I also have a serious physical condition that requires, for my sanity, for me to read inspirational books and thoughts which help keep my mind from going to the dark places. I have found beams of light, humor and truth on the pages of Mary's book which help me to stay grounded in my now/in the moment. . . . After reading this, I also have begun the practice of writing my thoughts on a daily basis which I find helpful in understanding where I am coming from and how I am feeling. So, I thank you, Mary Killian, for writing this book and sharing your experience, strength and hopes in the manner in which you have."

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"Written with humor, insight, grace and raw honesty, I love this book! Mary Killian has helped me understand the mind of an alcoholic and to heal my relationships with loved ones in a deeper way. She is a gifted writer who always leaves you wanting more. Highly recommend this book for those in recovery and those of us that love them."


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"I've read a lot of books on recovery so I was fully prepared to read yet another life story about addiction. However that was not the case with Mary's book. I must admit I started reading this book by looking up the definition of roustabout and I have been pleasantly surprised and pleasantly intrigued from then on. Mary has a way of putting into words so eloquently, sometimes humorously, sometimes with a twist, all these seemingly random and unrelated thoughts and feelings that I too have as a fellow addict. Sometimes it's thoughts and feelings I didn't necessarily realize I even had, but somehow she's put it into words! I have some recovery books that I keep close by for easy and or daily access, others I keep on the bookshelf for some other day. This is a keep close book. Great read for a bit of inspiration, in need of a pick me up, or just a fun read. This book would make an excellent gift for anyone in any stage of recovery."

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"This is a book of short writings that can be read in one sitting, or consumed bit by bit. It's apparent that while Mary takes her recovery very seriously, she doesn't take herself so seriously. Her observations are often humorous, at times poignant, and drive home the point that we owe it to ourselves to enjoy life as it comes, and to cut ourselves some slack - things are rarely as dire, or as permanent, as they may seem. A valuable message for all, whether in recovery (or the family member/friend of someone in recovery), or not."

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"I can't recommend this book highly enough. Mary Killian’s vulnerable, authentic, honest, shameless truth telling and heart sharing words were the key to unlock doors of my soul I didn’t even know were closed. Never having been an addict I didn’t expect to identify so powerfully with her book. Tears flowed from beginning to end as she shared not only her recovery from chemical addiction, but what it means to live this human experience. Life is hard on everyone; we are all recovering from something. Thank you Mary Killian for so generously sharing your life and hope with the world."


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"My favorite writing genre has always been personal narrative, the likes of David Sedaris, Mindy Kaling and Jenny Lawson to name a few. The best are when they're funny, heartbreaking, honest, and, at times, difficult to read the subject matter. Mary encompasses all of those traits and more in her writing. I feel like she's standing on each page just waiting to talk to me. Sometimes she makes me laugh, sometimes she makes me cry, but the conversation is always beautiful." Her honest depiction of her journey through recovery is inspiring. No matter if you or someone you know is battling demons, and aren't we all of some type or another, her writing will touch your heart and fill you with hope. Do yourself a favor and read this and pass it on. Better yet, read it and buy a few for those you love. Great job, Mary!"

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"Occasionally a book comes along that I don't want to end, so I savor a little each day hoping against hope that I can stretch it out forever and ever. The Roustabout Heart is one such book. Let me tell you why. It is honest - brutally, fearlessly, generously, humanely - honest. Much like the book of Psalms, the Roustabout Heart is a book filled with prayers. And I learned a long time ago "You can't pray a lie." (Huckleberry Finn) It is true. You can 't pray a lie. I found out the hard way. Eight years ago, my nineteen-year old nephew was killed in a car accident. Prayer - brutal, fearless, generous, humane - prayer is how I survived the horror of losing such a beloved young man. The Roustabout Heart is for all who want not just to survive but to thrive in heart, mind, body and soul the flips and flops of this journey we call life."


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"It is an uneasy emotion to say "I love it" when rating a book about recovery written by and about a friend, not dissimilar to "Liking" a post on Facebook showing a child with the flu and on the mend - I, as the reader, hate the circumstances have occurred in the first, but, in contrast, am thrilled by the remedy of the journey having occurred since. This work is an honest effort, a rare perspective. To say Ms. Killian is an "open-book" would not justify the permission slip she provides the reader to her experience. Moreover, she allows the reader into depths of her life about God, strength, hope, recovery, imperfection, and self-awareness that is stark and refreshing. As it is with recovery, the journey is not in conclusion and these written musings allow for a wonderful encapsulation of Ms. Killian's adventures to this stage. I enjoyed the read immensely, the ups and the downs, the light heart and poignancy, and the darkness that time and time again remind me to thank her for her writing and friendship. Thanks Mary, well done."